apparently I forgotten my pw & my username for that old blog so ya decided to use this!
anw, tdy is not a good day for me.
well, do you know the feelings of being cheated again & again?
the feelings sucks alotttt. beside being cheated, the feelings of being used by others doesn't feel good too!
perhaps I shld say I slowly begin to get used to it!
those feelings when you thought they won't fking hurt you, play you & cheat you, but actually they had been doing it all the long, really hurts a lot a lot a lot. I swear those feelings is like giving them smth precious to you & they just smashed it in front of you right at your face! & mm, I really really trying to get used to it.
Well, they said "life is full of ups & down"
yes, indeed it's, but i had been down down down for asdfghjkl.
couldn't even rmb when is the last time I really laughed. But I can rmb clearly when is the last time I cried.
Which is today! (:
Or maybe I shld say, every night crying myself to bed & woke up w a nightmare?
no one unds wts Im going through because know what?
ALL DONT EVEN CARE.
Well, those who hurts me, & you're reading this, you had succeeded in making me feel the most useless & stupidest girl in da world. & thank you for making me realize the importance of "open eyes bigbig bfr knowing people" !
also, thanks for making sucha great impact in my life & make me woke up from this scary & disgusting mare! (;
& no worries, I don't hate you bc hate brings me nowhere & you guys don't even match to be in my HATING LIST! :D
