Hi! :D
turned 18 yesterday!
The day I waited for v long finally arrived. :D
So let's begin!
Wasn't feeling very excited / looking forward to my birthday acthally, because I thought I had already drifted from many many many people & they won't even rmb my birthday.
as some of them know, I had a terrible past & I didn't get to celebrate my birthday last year.
Whereas I cried myself to bed last year on my birthday, handling break up from my ex.
& I rmb I swore that I won't celebrate my birthday anymore.
so maybe that's why I didn't have the excitement I used to have. Always asking what my friends gona buy for me / how they gonna celebrate it for me.
This year, I kept quiet. Didn't remind anybody that my birthday is coming.
I kept everything to myself.
& the fact is, I cried on my birthday like a pathetic dog because the people I expected to wished me didn't.
Boyf wasn't really prepared but I know he had planned for kinda long.
Things didn't turned out the way I expected because most of them ain't free / broke.
Quarreled w bf for 3 days straight bfr my birthday because I feel he doesn't even bother too.
I admit I was very very dishearten & disappointed.
but well, there's nth I could do & I just went to work on my birthday.
So bfr I went to work, i went to meet boyf at panjang.
Had kkm for lunch with bf, kok yong & yongkong.
Tho it's just a small grp of them, but I'm glad that they took their time to eat tgt w me.
& finally get to see my bf after so many days, literally make me smile & forget everything.
After lunch, we went to plaza.
unfortunately, smth happened & my mood was so terrible and fucking sad.
giving attitude & being super gaowei & cranky like a mad women
Venting my anger at bf yet he still remain quiet & calm me down.
Afterwards they sent me to work. (:
During work, I indeed regretted.
regret for coming to work on my birthday &
People was like asking me,
"why you work on your birthday"
Customers asked me
"18th is a big celebration, why you don't seem happy"
"where are you heading to after work!"
I really don't know what to answered.
I kept quiet and smiled.
Walking away with lots of thoughts in my mind.
Was super distracted during work & smth happened again.
Went to a corner and cried my heart out.
Feeling that the whole world is against me.
Called my bf up & tell him everything.
I bet he was shocked to heard me crying so badly.
Than, my boss came up to me and hear me out.
Thanks god for this 2 guys, I calm down. (:
Went back to work after awhile.
My boss asked the bartender to make a special drink for me.
"mojito"
which had some mint and sweet taste.
After drinking i indeed feel better.
*thankful*
Went home after work, & was crying again in the bus.
Blaming myself for being such a failure in everything.
When I alighted from bus, I really really wished to see my bf / friends surprising me.
But there's no one.
So I continue walking to the lift, wiping my tears away & trying to comfort myself.
& that's when I saw Huimin popping out from my house lift with a envelop and present on her hand.
I left speechless & shocked & I cried more.
Talked under my blocked for awhile and she said she would sent me up to my house since I'm so sad.
when I wanna walked towards the lift, saw bf , angle, kokyong, yong kong walking out from my lift with a cake.
that point of time I really really happy & everyone started to sing birthday song for me.
They asked me to go up to my house because there's more surprise.
& when I went up, I see a heart shape ballon sticking onto the wall with bf and my photos on it.
I literally don't know what to say.
Looking through the photos one by one & seeing each and everybody faces.
then I realize There's people who cares.
I really wanna thanks those few who make my birthday sucha memorable.
Especially huimin!
You know I'm so upset and I cried so so much & you purposely came to my house there to surprise me w present tho I still haven't got your belated birthday present.
Your hand writen letter make me touched. I love the present you gave me. <3
& also my bf for planning all this for me. No words could express how touched and grateful to have you. <3
& the 3 person who is part of the surprises.
Thanks for taking out your time to come and surprise me.
Spending money & thinking those idea to surprise me.
without you guys, there won't be this surprises because I know my bf is bad at planning things.
*Hahaha*
really thanks to angle , kok yong , yongkong , huimin and bf. <3
You guys really really awesome. :D
Not to forgot, those who wishes me at fb, Twitter & whstsapp.
I will nv forget. <3
& to the 3 closest brothers I had, Beng Sheng andy & isaiah.
I know you guys wanted to surprise me but one is not free and another didn't replied.
But I'm really happy that bs put in the effort to plan all this for me. (;
I saw the effort you guys make and I will nv forget. <3
Once again, thanks everyone for being of my life & make me feel so wanted & happy.
lots of love. <33333
