Appreciation

Thankyou. 😊

我好想你哦，真的！

🙃

Need you now

 Picture perfect memories

Scattered all around the floor

Reaching for the phone cause

I can't fight it anymore.

And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.

For me it happens all the time.

It's a quarter after one.

I'm all alone and I need you now.

x

上天啊

难道你看不出我很爱他

怎么明明相爱的两个人

你要拆散他们啊

上天啊

你千万不要偷偷告诉他

在无数夜深人静的夜晚

有个人在想他

以后的日子你要好好照顾他

我不在他身旁你不能欺负他

别再让人走进他心里

最后却又离开他

因为我不愿再看他流泪啦

上天啊

这些晚上我对你说的话

你别不小心漏嘴告诉他

我怕会吵醒他。

x

我放下所有回忆 来成全你的爱情

却始终不愿相信这是命

好久不见的你有点疏离

握手寒暄如此客气

何必要在他的面前刻意

隐瞒我的世界有过你

x

不知不觉钟声响起

你守候在原地 等待着他靠近

温柔的他单膝跪地

钻戒缓缓戴进 你的无名指里

当所有人都替你开心 我却才傻傻清醒

原来我们之间 已没有任何关系

😊

Hiraeth

 So much to say , so much to feel. 

am so drained ; mentally drained.

hope for a shoulder to lean, for me to spill out all my unhappiness & to make me feel better again.

what else can i do to make things better? is this how it suppose to be? i wondered. 

show me the light through the darkness.

why?  

no more tears left & i hope for the best. 

one day, 

he asked : how? 

i answered : because of love, because of understanding. 

he asked : how? 

i answered : he love me hence he don’t mind the little mistakes i made, because to him it wasn’t a mistake it was just who i am. 

he asked : why? 

i answered : because we were busy creating more beautiful moments together than finding faults with each other. 

he asked : why? 

i answered: people that truly love you, will see the flaws in you & still find it cute. people that love themselves more than you will only keep finding ways to make you be like them. 

& 

true enough, it wasn’t because there is no love but because the love is so strong that we rather compromise & go along with each other than finding little faults that leads to arguments. 

this is what i call love

 & 

that’s when i realised , i will never love anyone the same way ever again. 

how long more do i have to perceive to be better? 

how long more do i have to wait to be better?

how many more nights do i’ve to sob just to be better?

&

how many more lies do i’ve to tell myself to be better?

🙁

till then x