Rainy day

Hi hi, 

It is raining heavily now and suddenly alot of things hit me hard. Well, knew quite alot of things that I shouldn't have know from my past but rls but I guess life goes on with or without him. 

I knew that I put in my best in my prev rls, I did what I can but somwtimes things just don't go our way. When I re read our convo , the last  message we sent to each other, I wonder what he said is it real. Didn't believe that so fast I can be replaced too when he said he loved me so much. HAHA. 

Well, life goes on ya. (:

So much memories for both of us and it is not easy to say forget then forget. I tried my very best to not think of him when I'm free but at times I really really do miss him but after last night where I knew alot alot of things, I asked myself if this is the guy that I once knew and once loved before... 

Last time, no matter what happened no matter how hard we quarrelled, I had never get tired of him and not even have the mindset of giving up on this rls despite always telling him I'm tired because I wants him to change for the better. At times I asked myself if it is wrong to stress him but if I don't tell him the right things, who will? Ultimately , I lose this rls. Hahahaha. 

Sometimes when I pass by certain places, I picture of us being together, I picture the secne we did and us. 18 chef, sazairiya, jcube, jurong point, bus 241, bus 99 and alot alot. 

I rem when we first started out, he will come over to my place to surprise me and send me to work despite long bus ride and I rem him telling me " I want to pei you so you won't b so boring and lonely in the bus " awwww. 

Everything pass so fast. I also remember when we first started off, he have nothing at all and me too but why we can be so sweet? What happened and what makes us change? 

I remember I cleared his room drawer for him, threw alot of rubbish for him and force him to pack his waredrobe. I rem asking him to help me with my schl assignment and he will always just sit there and watch me do. Awww so sweet. I remembered I cried so badly and told him " take this few days as never happened " because he said something that saddened me and we laughed about it at times. HAHAHA. FUCKUP. 

I remembered him teaching me how to ride a bicycle and he got so dulan with me and we somehow argue. HAHAH I said " 你要教人也要有patience 的吗 " I remembered when I go to his place to find him, he will come out and drag me to his house stairs there to smoke and we will always sit there secretly to smoke HAHA. Sometimes after dinner we will like tell his mom " er.. we go down find friend " but actually fact we went down to smoke and come up. Keke. 

I remembered how he will reject his mom when his mom cooked my fav crabby. Aiyooooo miss mama home cooked food. Hehe. I remembered he will always rush me to go wash my leg when I enter his house but I always refused. And there is this time, I got playful and when we washing our leg, I wanted to lock him out from his room and I ran out from the toilet and I FELL ONTO THE GROUND!!! And this idiot didn't help me up first, he laughed so loudly at me first then help me up and make fun of me. Idiot !!!!

I remembered he went to buy the lights for his room wall and we on it, with aircon and we blast music and both of us were lying on the bed singing. I remembered we went to jcube for lunch, and we came.across this sell karaoke stall and he stopped by and see. I can see from his eyes that he really wants it and thus he pulled my hand and we went into the shop. At first I object that he buy that and we left the shop to have our lunch. After lunch, he looked again and then my heart went soft like.... WHO DW TO SAYANG THIS CUTE LITTLE BOY? so I told him " ok we half half " HAHAHA and we got it. 

I remembered he will always get so pissed off with me when I don't wait for him after we left his place and he need to lock the door. HAHAHA. I remembered that we got lock out from the house a few times because he have no keys to enter. and he will always like " walan eh, 真的叻他们。每次这样的 " And there is time we went down to his blk to sit and smoke and chat. Hais, miss that shit. 

I remembered he will always wait for me at the subway there and I will get angry because he said he will fetch me from MRT and then he will tell me " ya what this is mrt what " /." I'm smoking leh bb " HAHAHAHA. Last time will get pissed off w him but now think back it is kinda cute of us. RIGHT?? I rem he will bite my cheek as and when out of sudden and I got shocked and I will get pissed off w him too. hahaha. Eh pain sia. 

I rem he will asked me why I don't always post pictures on social media and my reply will always upset him. HAHAH silly boy. Sometimes I rly forget la, sometimes never think dao. Ok la sorry ...  I love how he will say something funny that will make my mom laugh, and i love how he will like " MADAM " when he saw my mom with his fake phliphines accent. And I love how mama will sayang him and will always ask me to bring one btl of herbal drink after she brewed and this boy will finished it. so guai. (: 

Oh boy, he still owe mama one meal oh. HAHAHA. Actually all this memories is really really good. Like I hope I can recollect all this memories from the beginning till now and keep it in my mind till I'm old. But I know as time passes , all thses memories will slowly fade away.... (': 

We will start with someone new we will forget about the things we did prev, we will forget the happiest moment we had, we will forget the feeling we had for each other and till this point, I admit I still care and love for you alot. But I know things changed, you no longer think about me you no longer have feelings for me and other girl is taking over my job. Can't believe the one that is sleeping next to you is not me anymore but another girl. Can't believe the girl that youre hugging to sleep is no longer me, can't believe it is no longer you that is smelling my hair and tell me it is " bb girl girl 的味道 " Can't believe the one that is sharing your towel is not me but another girl. And soon alot of things she will take over and it will no longer be me. This is the worst part of break up because 曾经我为你做过的，现在其他的人要做了 and likewise too... 

Misterjy, I miss you and I wish you all the best in everything. 就让这些美丽的回忆放在我的心里，有空我会去想和记得我们在一起的日子。希望你会过得好。希望你会好好照顾你的爸爸和妈妈和妹妹和你自己没。

宝贝傻的比真的是要放手了。

Goodbye my love. 

03112015 xoxo. 

I deleted all this pic from Twitter because it hurts me so much but on the other hand , 我舍不得。。。 How silly me. 

idiot!!!! so cute

I swear I was v proud of you but think back this was where things was going to change..... (':

you fuckup.... but I know you really is buxiaoxin one hehe

虽然我们在一起3 年，是真的不是很长，可是我还是很珍惜每一天和你在一起的时间and that explains why I will always want to meet you ...

是啊，有你的感觉真好。。

sunshine to bread man. HAHAHA. BOTAK BOY.

thank you for staying awake to wake this little piggy up. actually I was smiling when I sent all that text to you. like legit I felt so happy and blessed. (:

awwww..look who is that!? SO SWEET HOR.

awww... the anniversary present. Sad to say I stopped wearing it already.

the first time we went to this cck place to have dinner and you so sweet, you asked mama they all to order something I got eat one. hehe

Okay na, bye bye le oh. Hehe x