im sorry , I love you

Hello !!! 

How's your day spent ? 

Get to meet my ass this few days and I really enjoyed myself. 

Let begins with yesterday then. 

Yesterday went to work & ended work seeing my dear boy out there waiting for me . 

Whats more i can ask for ? (:

After that head over to orchard with them && waited fr dora to reached. 

Walked arnd and then bus back to panjang with them. 

Tho it's really kinda bored but theres still someone who can make me smile and laugh . 

But well , I didnt notice that things changed. 

Everything changed completely.... 

Perhaps is me who's in wrong . I really regret for saying those harsh words at him. 

Mmm, I might be losing him but I'm v sure he must be happy with wtv decisions he made. 

Till here then. 

Goodnight &&goodbye lovelies . 

they say nv try nv know

Hello xx

Ive no idea why I'm always being so emotional when it comes to relationship.

Maybe is my past rs and those shits I had went through but well, I know I can't pull all this things together down to my future relationship. 

I tried to be happy, I tried to smile I tried to be more open minded but I don't know why I always feel so so so insecure and paranoid. 

I hate myself for feeling this and hate myself for thinking that all guys gna treat me like how those guys who had hurt me. 

Sigh. 

P/S i know my blog post is always emo nemo and boring but please bear with me. (:

back to my daily life routine.

Let me begins with.......

Yesteeday !!
yesterday went out to find my friends at panjang.
After that back to 9 head to meet jiahui and Jean to drink.
I'm actually not sad but I've no idea why I can drink quite a lot yestd!
*HAPPY*

Headed home at 12 plus!
Shower & eat & then just poom to bed!

xx

woke up at 8am plus and head out to tpg to pass the shop key to my colleagues.
&& headed home.
was fking sleepy & I went to home to have my beauty sleep!
MUAHAHHA. 

ending this blog post with my selfie! :D

goodbye lovelies <3

live to the fullest

Hihihi x 

so now it's 3.44am & I'm still wide awake. sigh, body clocked srsly damn screwed. /: 

anw, tdy gna blog about what happened recently.

Was feeling damn upset and i broke down in front of my friend.

sigh, yes I know, A G A I N. 

sigh, rlly hate myself for always crying for small things & I can't even handle simple things well zz. 

I don't get it how someone can treat you likea dog when you helped that someone sosososo much even when that person hurt you more than anything. 

and the swear this kind of hurts is rlly unbearable. 

why this kind of things got to happen on me? 

why am I always get treated this way, treated so unfairly? ):

I shldnt cry over someone who doesn't worth my tears & I know. 

but well, feelings is really hard to control especially when it comes to friends.

The reason why i treasure friendship so much right now is because I had already neglected my friends a lot a lot a lot because of my ex boyf & I really regretted it.

And I thought it's time to give all my time to my friend than guys. 

Sigh. 

I rlly regret knowing this friend of mine because this person hurts me so badly before & he still didnt see what he had done yet trying to sabotage my friend and my friendship.. 

zzzz.  oh well, thumbs down for you dude.
try harder next time then. :)

but I'm lucky enough to have someone to wipe off my tears and hear all my problems. :D 

alright, it's time for me to sleep.

Goodnight lovelies x 

muah xx <3

Suckish feelings

Have you ever felt so upset out of sudden but you've no idea why you're upset. 

You just wna someone to be there for you, to talk to you, someone to lend you your shoulder to cry on & tell you everything gna be okay ? 

Today i felt this way. I've no idea why i felt super duper down & upset. 

I didn't cry but i know I'm feeling damn horrible. 

sigh. 

Guess i shall write everyth down here because i guess no one will bother to read anw.

SO!!

As you guys know i just broke up w my current ex few months back when he's inside DB. 

Those who dont know me/ not close to me, please don't judge ya? But if you do, i don't give a flying fk too. :D

&& i was like finally I'm able to give up on this relationship tho i was rlly struggling at first.

It wasn't an easy path for me but i knew i already tried mt best but still, i can't get what i wanted. 

As days pass, i came to know this guy. 

(Not gg to say his name)

He texted me, he cheer me up & make me laugh. 

He sent me his super unglam photo just to see me smile, woke up early just to fetch me from my house and then sent me to work place, care for me & even make me laugh even when i don't feel like & i somehow fall for him a lil.

But unfortunately he still love his ex.

I've no idea why he did all this to me when he actually still thinking about his ex.

But i gotta admit i like it a lot. 

Friends & my momma had been persuading me to give up on ex but no matter how hard i tried, i had nv succeed. Bur he make it! :D

I wait.......for him like 1 month? 

And i rlly hope one day, he would be mine, but i was super wrong.

Damn lots of things happened and i was freaking upset & disappointed w him. 

& now? We don't even contact.

How great would it be to have someone like him to make pick me up from whr i fell and then throw me down to the ground even harder again? 

I don't know..... i rlly dk. 

I just know, that freaking day, i was crying alone while walking. I totally have no idea where i walked to. I just know i was walking all the way straight. 

My world seems so black & I'm terribly upset.

As day pass, i slowly to forget him & i moved on. 

Even tho now i didn't rlly care about him & i can don't stalk him, but tbh, i still care alot for him. 

Maybe that's what they always says 

"as long as you fall in love w someone bfr, you will nv stop caring for them" 

Perhaps??

I don't know. Haha! 

No point holding on to something that ain't meant to be yours

HELLO!

yes I know I had neglected my blog for a long long time! hahaha! 

as usual. it gna be a long post. 

I've no idea where to start ! so I will just start with that day I went for my cousin's birthday celebration & house warming. (:

When to her house, I forgotten what's the road name but it's a condo! Hehehe. The house fking nice la, and bigggggg! *HEARTSHAPE EYES*

Some photos taken in daddy's car but it was moving so it's fking hard to get a nice shot. So when we reached the carpark, I was like 

"SIS, HELP ME TAKE PHOTO NOW" 

what a nice shot from daddy! hahaha.

*my mouth full of food & he just "Qi ah, look here" so yeah! :D

Candid by daddy. have no idea why my face look so cramped here! HAHAHAHAH. 

Went to walked ard & explore the whole place w sissy. & we came by this place and I said "what a good spot to take photo & step one atas" ! 

Went for my reporting after that this celebration! Guess whattttt? 

NEXT MONTH HAVE TO GO BACK AGAIN! D: 

Next stop, went to meet my girls for a short while at Blk area! 

then head to jurong east to meetup w yikang & derrick! (:

that's how I spent my whole day! 

was mad tired because I was out the whole day but what's tired when I can see my friends? right ??? right! :D

Next stop! On 30th dec 2014!

first of first, Say hello to my primary school friends down below here ! 

Hehehehe, what's so best about primary school friends? it's because we can talked a lot even tho all of us is in different school rn. & when we talked about primary school life, all memories brought us back to the old us & we laughed! 

& ofcx this meet up was mainly to celebration our Mr Leong JiaWen 17th birthday! Why I said 17th? 

Because his birthday falls on 31dec! :D

His smile always bring laughter to all of us. 

on the 31st dec! Yes all of you must be saying countdown countdown countdown! But this particular day, I was crying crying & crying.

pathetic much? Yeah i know. (:

shan't say what had bappened but I'm glad that my friends will always be here for me no mater what happened! 

special thanks to my shemin pokey & my fattymin! 

This photo below, prove how tired and sleepy Im because I got only few hrs of sleep & I went out to meet someone who meant a lot to me but smth happened & I was strolling alone outside till I called shemin & I went to find her & cried my heart out. 

and aft that went to find my huimin jiejie.

 Imagine yourself walking alone on street with a damn tired and sleepy mood & shit things happened & you had t cry while walking & everybody was just like staring at you. Those tears that dropped down unknowingly even when you tried to control those heartache you get and your whole world feels upside down. 

yes, this feelings fkup. 

I wasn't drunk but it's just me and my heartbroken & sleepy face!

Really appreciate huimin to accp me for about hrs at jp. walking ard w me, hear my problems, telling me not t cry & even make a fool out of herself to make me smile and laugh. 

& ofcx my shemin! I know you're shocked to hear me crying over the phone when I called you & be my listening ear, wiping my tears for me, giving me advices & also trying to make me smile! (: 

After that, went over to ma'am jess house to countdown w my babes & stay over at her house which is also at condo & it's fking awesome ma :D HAHAHA. 

my super grumpy face in the morning.

because it's like 8am plus in the morning & I slept late bfr that! sigh

DADANG! after a good shower! 

Left ma'am house at about 10 plus. 

Went to meet jiahui bb & the rest at ECP! Riding the tricycle w them. Super fun & at least I won't feel empty with their jokes. :D 

& I got to say, I'm super sleepy & tired that few days! 

Had some sleep aft we reached the chalet because im really really dead tired zz. 

Had about 1 hrs plus of sleep & got woke up by those guys! *ROLL EYES* 

Went to the beach to have some fresh air & cooling sea water! hahaha.

*pardon my super ugly & tired face*

Jerome's younger brother! Much love for this qtpie. <3

Jerome's ........ idk ! hahahaha! She's pretty ain't her ? :)

DADANG! how can I not take photo w the birthday boy? hahaha. 

KISS KISS FROM THIS SWEET LIL GUY HERE! <3 

stayed till 1am plus! Cabbed home w my fattyhui! 

Next! Went to tpy w fattyhui & doraaaaaaa to watch UV LIGHT DRAGON DANCE COMPETITION.

Day ended badly for me again but from the same person! Well .... life goes on right? :D 

on a sat, went to watch movie w le sissy @ jp! 

5th jan monday, this fattyhui came over to my house while waiting for her bf to end work zzzz. 

next day, went to meet my huimin jiejie @ jp to accp her for dinz. hahahaha! I simply love meeting her because she can make me laugh a lot even when I don't feel like it. <3 

Guess that's how I spent my day for that 1 week? Shit things happened, we got to suck thumbs and face it ourselves! Be strong, smile & walked away if there's a need. :D

Till here then. 

love ya guys if you read all the ways :D 

goodbye lovelies. <3