最近还好吗？It is always a fear to scroll through my photo album as there too too too many of our photos. From the first day we get together until now..... Too many photos...
I know i have delete your & our photos sooner or later but the thoughts of it makes me feel so freaking upset. 3 freaking years of photos n videos it is not easy.
Just now i went to scroll through and i cried again. Why on earth do i love you so much when you can’t even do little things for me? Why am i still holding on when i know you’re alr gone.
From the first day, when we talked at snapchat, to the day we got tgt, to the day we almost broke up and to now. EVERYTHING seem so so so fast.
2019 is nearing, i will definitely miss those festival we celebrate together, those 3rd of every month together.
Although we don’t really buy gifts for each other but those long messages that both of us will sent to each other, those meetup we will arrange on this special date will be carved in my heart deeply.
Sigh.... i miss you so much. I miss your baby smell, i miss your laughter i miss your singing i miss every single thing. Why do you have to leave me like this? Why do you have to give me up like this? Why do you have to let go of my hand? Why do you have to stopped trying? Why do you have to stop loving me? Bb, 我的心很痛很痛。Those future talks, those future planning & etc, where have they been to?
Rem you said you want me to be the first and last? Rem you said you will only love me and only me? Rem you said u wanna prove to those people that i ain’t whom they think i’m? I thought you said you will love me till eternity?
Where have all this gone to? Rem you said you will bring me go china to meet your relatives?
3 years oh 3 years, which is equivalent to 1095 days, we are together for this thousand plus days together, how can a “be friends is better than couple” cover all this up? 难道我真的有那么的烂吗？难道我对你不好吗？难道我不值得你去努力去奋斗吗？难道我们真的要变成这样吗？真的吗？这个是你想要的吗？
I love you more than anything and yknow i will do anyt and everyt for you. Despite disliking the things u did, but i still close one eyes, i still let you go, i still try my best to like the things you like. Yknow when you said you cried because Mama gg to sell away xiaomad, yknow how upset i’m? yknow how heartaching it is?
I see that you’re in china now, i hope you can clear your mind and i hope you can come back happily. 我不会告诉你我有多爱你或多想你。反正你应该都不会进来这边读我的 blog 了。
I will always reread our past message, and i really miss it. Even though is plainly just arguing, i’m still missing it.
希望下一个你认识的，会比我更好，希望你会比较开心，希望她会比我更爱你，更了解你。
I guess in the world, so far, apart from your family members, i guess i’m also one of them who understand you well ba?
Hahaha, you can’t rly take spicy but you super love mcspicy, you like to eat bigmac but because of me you stop eating. When we go 18chef, you will always order the salted egg spag. You don’t rly drink koi etc.
You and your QOO green colour will always be in my heart.
And your must eat duck rice when we at yewtee point food court, and the shao ji fan, no bone, and our lotus soup w bean sprout.
I rem we will always argue on who to take the chair in so that we can eat in your room and thank you for always letting me relax, ended up you will go take the chair.
Those never ending “GO WASH LEG LEH BB” “你看你的脚酱黑” and you will slap my little feet. HAHAHA.
i know you always see ants at home, you will go like “哇，这个家真的是 cmi sia” and get all angsty. And i rem when i m shitting, u will always disturb me from outside & the face you will give when my poopoo is chouchou.
When i fart you will like open your big big eyes and stare at me and say “bb ah!!”
and the “你嘛不是一样” , “sei mo”!!
And you will always gek me and i will say about mama and you will threaten me and really call mama, and mama will be like hen lost. HAHA ASSHOLE.
And those buying cigg time, u will always say “check her IC, underage” and when they rly ask for my IC, i will get angry at you. & you will always say “玩玩而已吗”
And my house there de tzichar, the people there know us. (:
What else? “今天看到的人不代表明天看到”
嗨。。。太多太多的回忆啦。I hope at some point of time, you will have flashbacks of us and you will smile when it comes to your mind.
I hope i will get over this soon, and i hope i will be happier. I hope i will put everything behind and start afresh soon.
Last but not least, i hope you will be happier than before.
请你下一个女孩，会让你更开心，会疼爱妈妈and 妹妹。我很高兴认识你和你的家人。
from loving family, where we get to eat dinner often to your parent quarrel, to sleep living room to now back again, and from meimei admitted to hosp, to discharge to now, better alr, from you studying ITE, to army, and to a grown up man, from papa doing sunshine to now full time grab, from nehneh still breathing to now, a guardian angel of all of you, and me.. from studying at lifelong, to swtv and now to ynhc. (:
3 years really happened a lot of things, i’m glad we r together for this long.
bb girl girl 的味道 有没有想念啊？
Bb, 我。。。真的。。走了哦。No matter how the future holds, i wish you all the best. I hope lim’s family won’t forget me and my face and us. I hope everyone will be healthy and happy.
I hope mama eyes will be good soon, and i hope meimei condition will get better. Spend some time w your family. I will miss your gugu(s) and those familiar faces of your relative. I will miss your unqiue size bed and your dusty computer.
Remember go pack your drawer that is opposite your bed when you’ve time, don’t always chuck those unwanted things inside. Don’t want de things go throw. Drink finished de bottles pls clean it, and coins put haohao, watch spoil alr go repair! Drink more water and rem this, DRIVE SAFELY. Don’t speed.
Go in jb pump petrol, be careful too. Don’t smoke so much and sleep early.
Hope you will also find back your body clock soon and be punctual for your next job.
when sleeping, try not to stall your fan, cos it is not good for your nose even tho i know you will still do it because..... I SAID SO MANY TIMES BUT SAME PATTERN STILL.
Bb boiboi, 时间会让一切慢慢的模糊，也会把我对你的爱慢慢的变没有。在我不爱你的之前，我很想跟你讲，我真的很爱你。我对你的爱不是一两天的事。如果时间能够倒流，我还是会选择你的。谢谢你出现在我的生命里。谢谢你陪我走过那些风风雨雨。接下来的路，就有其他的人陪我们了。今天我就哭一次够力够力的吧。
Enjoy yourself in China & find yourself back.
You can do it, is only you want or don’t want only. You’re a very clever boy, just that right now the path seem blurry to you, once your mind is clear, you will definitely find your way. But before you do all this, ask yourself, what you really want to achieve in life. You lost me, it is not something big for you, but don’t because of something that CAN be bought by money, and lose something that money CANT buy n i’m saying family, and your next love ones and friend (who is rly concern about you) Pick yourself up soon & go all out. Step out of your fear and comfort zone, you will see there is a light ahead of you. 不要让我白白的走掉。Idk if the next one for me will be as good as you or issit a fuckboy like those few before i meet you, but...... doesn’t matter anymore. 我已经失去了你，我也没有什么好担心了。你开心就好，你开心就是我最大的幸福。真的
okay la, it is pretty late now. 3.45am!! :( Sleeping time lo!!! Wan an misterjy. (‘:
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