Hello People!!
Today is the 6th days that we officially stopped contacting.
Honestly; i was quite mad after reading his text because he decided to let me go again.
I thought i have alr immune to the pain, and i have no more tears to shed anymore but little did i realise it still affect me quite a lot.
Tears start rolling down once i play songs. Eyes just become damn watery after having flashbacks.
Thinking of those days when we were together.
Like there is too too too much memories and things we did together.
Like, he will teach me how to ride a bicycle below his house, and he was being patience with me even though i was quite stupid to learn it.
I rem pestering him to ride ofo with me after i learned how to ride. I rem him bringing me to meet his car group friend even through i’m a shy little bitch but deep down i was rly happy but tired at the same time. i rem how we will always go to the same restaurant to settle our lunch and go shopping together. i rem how he will always say “你买了都没有吃，放在冰箱浪费” when i ask to buy 9freash after lunch! I rem how he always will scratch my back for me patiencly when i ask for it and he will always say “啊你看，谁会想我酱有耐心帮你痒痒，你去找咯” HAHAHA.
i rem how he laugh at me when i run and fell down after washing my leg at his house. I rem how he will piggyback me from room to kitchen just to wash my leg after like 5-10mins of nagging. i rem how he will watch toggle with me and slowly he watch it too.
There is too much memories and it can’t be express over here.
Last 2 days, i came home, and my mom asked “qi ah, 做么酱 sian 的，谁欺负你，还是跟谁吵架了”
i went speechless and i realise i haven’t being laughing or smiling or talk much at home.
I guess my laughter and my smile is all used up during work and meeting friends.
I’m really so so drained. Every night slept for only 3-4 hours.
Today saw his friend’s IG & realise that he teared away the sticker i bought for him to paste in his car.
No idea why my heart felt like it is shattering but i guess it makes me stronger than i shld be.
And i guess he is moving on well & that’s good.
I hope without me he will be more carefree more happy and life will be better. (:
I really want to say, im grateful to have you and i’m glad that we are an item before.
thank you for this 3 years memories. It is not easy, but i’m glad we pull through this 3 years. (;
I believe the next one will be better for both of us because we learn from this rls.
Thank you for teaching me so much, and thank you for being such a good boyfriend towards me.
Although at times i know we want to kill each other badly but nevertheless we still ended off with “I LOVE YOU BB”
From Stranger to friends and to couple and now back to friends is not easy.
You said being friends is better than being a couple, yup! I guess so too.
At least, there is US before. (: I hope you’re doing good right now, i hope you don’t feel stress now, i hope you won’t feel suffocating now.
Yknow when you smile, it will brighten up my mood. So i hope to see you smile more oh. (;
Thank you for understanding me so well that even before i open my mouth, you already know what i wanna say. Thank you for loving me and everything that i have. Although both of us thought that we will last till we get old but things always don’t go our way.
Sorry for not being the best girlf you ever had and sorry for not making our promises come true.
I’m sorry for loving you so much and hurting you at the same time.
I’m sorry for being needy at times and always ask stupid things when we meet despite knowing you doesn’t like it as it will lead to quarrel.
I hope the next one will treat you even better and i hope you will be happier in the future.
But i also want to be a little selfish because i want you to rem me forever; deep down in your heart that there is this 3 years girl who is with you n gone through a lot of ups and downs together.
I hope in the future, when you get to know someone better, you will still rem my face my smell and everything about us.
My dear boy,
这次我真的走了。不会在回头了。心痛一定会可是我答应你我不会伤心太久。
虽然我们最后没有在一起，可是我希望我们还是能一起为将来努力。
我希望你不会忘记那个可爱又angsty 的我。
而我会牢牢记住你，林俊諹。
谢谢你的爱。
希望下辈子，我们还能在一起回。
- Thank you for going to Bali with me and my family. This one while say trip is tiring but it is fun! thank you for another overseas trip again with you xoxo. We took bus, train, car, grab, plane together before. and this one is by SHIP! WEW!
Love how you can sleep till soundly makes me feel like doting you more! So cutie boy! Hehe.
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I rem this is the first time i went to fetch you from work!! HEHE! & your colleague snap this. (: This is where we first tgt, n never did i know we will become an item for 3 years. From “idk her well” to “she shake her butt i also know what she thinking” (;
The recent time we went out together with your friends. I ask you what shld i wear and you told me Long Pant! Hehe! So cutie! ✨
Thank you for cooking this 爱心 fried rice for me. It is really good !!! I swear! And this is the first time in this 3 years u auto cook for me. Thank you for leaving such wonderful memories. (:
好啦。就到这里了。
林俊諹，现在我不在你身边，记得要好好照顾自己。Is time to return back to those day where we haven’t meet each other again. It is time to return back to those alone time.
谢谢你这三年的人陪伴还有所有的美好回忆。谢谢你让我知道什么是爱，也教会我很多东西。答应我，把我放在你心里的一个地方。把我们美好的回忆都记在心。and i hope that at times you will think back of me & us. (; 舍不得；可是我知道，是时候了。
最后一次，我想要对你说声，
林俊諹，我方玥錡重来没有嫌弃你，也没有看不起你，更没有觉得你把我拖下水。我是真的真的很爱你的。
再见了我的宝贝 bb boi.
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